The Question That Tested My Patience Every Day

When?

I asked myself and got silent. No more chaos, only silence all around. No more thoughts, opinions, or notions, only one question: when? When would I be the one I am aiming to become? It's the question for patience. It's for silence and calmness. Every day, I started showing up with a thought: I could. But the question tests me and my patience every day.

Patience is something everyone talks about, but few possess.

On this writing journey, I had a constant thought that maintained my peace over inner conflicts. Whatever is going to happen will happen; I would improve. But whenever the question "when" comes, peace gets disturbed. Not much, just a bit. A bit that questions my patience.

A simple answer I give myself: Tomorrow. Peace and patience get back to their place. I don't define which tomorrow. If I get better than yesterday, it's a step forward toward that day.

Tomorrow isn't only a word; it's my self-belief and confidence. It's my trust in the process I have been trying to follow consistently.

"When" is a necessity. It's necessary for patience and calmness. Without it, peace couldn't be tested. The question gives choices to quit. But commitment and patience motivate me to continue. It helps introduce me to myself, to my awareness. It helps me check my commitment to "I could."

A few days back, I was trying to maintain my streak. But there were no thoughts I could voice out. I waited for an hour. Two hours. Three hours. Finally, I decided: why not write about the blankness? The blankness I was facing. I waited for a few more minutes, decided, and voiced myself out on it without a second thought.

Patience defines growth. Without it, growth doesn't exist. Thoughts don't matter without it. Neither the words nor the voice. It's the key to every learning, every experience I have had.

Believe. Be patient. Grow. Evolve.

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