The Comfort of Not Having All the Answers: Learning to Accept Uncertainty

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Silence, silence, and more silence- it's the thing I enjoy most. Being eager was a choice, but silence was my necessity. I didn't lose answers; I just stopped needing them. Calmness encourages me to be patient and curiosity to ask questions; however, writing gave me the courage to be calm while being curious. Not knowing didn't make me feel incomplete.

Not every flaw needs to be improved; some are complete by being incomplete. Questions and flaws do exist, but they don't disturb me now. Every experience is questionable, but not every question is answerable; being a question has been a great answer to my journey.

I found peace in uncertainty instead of clarity. The writing journey has been quite uncertain from the start. What I would observe, I didn't know; what I would reflect, I didn't know; what I would improve, I didn't know. However, I knew what I didn't want- the eagerness to know everything instantly. It's the only clarity I have been carrying from the first day of my journey.

While writing this blog, I just remembered some quite memorable moments I experienced while writing my blogs. I had experiences of both- the days with a lot of things to share and the days with nothing to share. But I didn't force myself to answer my “why” instantly.

Despite not being eager, I understood my “why” within the next few days. A lot and nothing were just the same- it was creative exhaustion. Neither does “a lot” mean unique every time, nor does “nothing” mean it. I became okay with what I understood instead of asking unnecessary questions. Silence felt enough even without explanations.

Not everything needs to be rushed to make sense of things. Imperfect thoughts are perfect stories within oneself. A few days back, when I felt empty, despite being a flaw, it was a significant learning of the journey; it taught me to redefine and raise standards to grow much better.

The need to define every experience faded. Letting things be felt felt better than figuring them out.

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