Why Self-Awareness Leads to Overthinking (And Feels Like Pressure)

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Being self-aware is both a boon and a bane. It neither holds me back nor helps me grow faster. The more I know myself, the more my brain thinks. The self-aware spider makes a web of thoughts within the mind. Messy thoughts didn't just affect my words, they exhausted my energy, leaving me blank. Constantly thinking about improvement has become my pattern. Doing it continuously exposes my flaws and mistakes. And knowing the pattern makes it harder to ignore them. Whenever I think, my brain struggles between thoughts of flaws and improvement. Mental noise replaces clarity in this conflict. While writing blogs, clarity plays a significant role in giving words to the voice. But sometimes I fumble while writing words for my thoughts and learnings. I begin analysing in between more than expressing. I constantly look after the thoughts I write, ensuring they define my emotions and thoughts completely. Clarity struggles and turns into constant questioning. I remember a specific...
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How I Learned to Protect My Energy and Stay Consistent Without Burnout?

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Despite distractions, I maintained the streak. It's not only because of discipline and consistency but was a combined effort guided through energy prevention. Hurdles hurt, but will and energy healed to express without any hesitation. It's not easy to have control over attention, but writing my voice out is building that within me.

Overthinking nearly exhausted me with my thoughts to express in blogs. Not a single tale of curiosity and creativity was paving the way to reflect in the blog. The day I started taking my thinking as calculative, the time which was getting wasted started to be utilized, thinking much more about myself and my writing journey.

I remember an incident when I was numb, thinking and waiting for the perfect word to write my emotions. I at least wasted half an hour phrasing the sentences with different words. And when my blog got completed, that whole sentence I was thinking about for half an hour was not even expressing my true emotions which I had felt. However, I published my blog after removing that sentence from it. But the time and curiosity wasted could have been utilized for better thoughts.

From that, I realized that thoughts need time to be perfect; forcing couldn't make them flawless. But writing it out and continuing further could help in writing much better and improved views and experiences. I avoided forcible overthinking from that day. Changes were visible to me in less than a week. Thoughts were coming flawlessly within the brain to be expressed in words.

I was aware of my mental chaos and peace. On this journey, I had understood to prioritize my mental peace. It plays a significant role in bringing out different and unique learnings to share. A calm and composed brain gave me ample space to think beyond my capacity. The learnings which were often neglected seemed very promising to share. My previous blog on overcomplicating things is one of them.

The thinking of not writing every thought doesn't make me feel guilty now. I started writing as a raw thoughts explorer. But with time, writing reflected to me the true meaning of rawness. Everything is to be shared, but with honesty and uniqueness within.

Certain boundaries had given birth to my self-respect, boosting confidence and courage. Crossing them would push me back to where I started.

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